Can’t say I’ve been in SL much in the past ten days or so, mainly due to some reorganizing in my first life that didn’t leave me too much time to be in-world (and it’s not really convenient to attend events and such when you only have 15 minutes ahead here and there). However, I must admit that some of the recent developments also didn’t encourage me to try and find the time. There’s a chilling and nasty wind blowing in here these days, it’s like the new year and the changes brought in-world have made some dark little things walk out of the closet all of a sudden, and everybody’s become snappy and irritable, at least on the forums (and in-world too from what I could see when I was in). Of course, I’m still regularly browsing the forums, because not being in-world doesn’t mean I must remain deaf and blind, after all; although, perhaps this would be a blessing, in this case!

I also kept an eye on the SLExchange trainwreck – how couldn’t I, it’s everywhere now. I’m not a person to decide in haste, and thus so far I haven’t jumped on any bandwagon of “I’m boycotting!” or “I’m not!”, but this affair sure keeps me at unease and with a bad taste in my mouth no matter what. It reeks – I can’t say it otherwise, it reeks; of more hidden reasons (in spite of the explanations given), of PR stunts, of ugly feelings. I’d be tempted to not follow the forums anymore to simply avoid seeing these, but it’s never a solution, and it just shuts one off from (sometimes) useful information.

Actually, I’m not sure if I want to take an position in this – I can and will express my views, but nobody ask me to take an active militant role or whatcrap. I don’t care whether I’m being a coward or not; I simply know well enough what it is to suffer from hard feelings stemming from a “game”, and I know that I don’t need this currently, nor will allow myself to get engulfed in such happenings again. The day I’m letting myself get down again because of some frigging online world, and the emotional involvment is indeed real, no need to blind oneself with this – the day this happens, I’ll just keep quiet and in my corner until I’m calmed down, period.

Regardless, will I pull out my stuff or not, when I’ve been in from the beginning (thanks, I must say, to Merwan exclusively, as he’s the only one I’ve ever had contact with regarding SLEx)? I don’t know, it’s been a nice ride after all, but… the answer is “likely, if things go on in such an ugly manner”. There are too many shady parts unveiling and building up to my liking, and I very much doubt I wish to be part of this for very long, even if only to see “what happens”.

I suppose it’s no use to ask “why can’t we all get along”? sighs